Saturday, November 29, 2008
In a time when I hurt, struggling to rebuild my comfy but lonely walls, not wanting anybody close enough to me to break my heart or betray me, I began a fresh friendship. A new pen pal. Her name: Rebecca.
Still shell shocked and distrusting, I doubted that I would let anybody get close and that I was the man I'd thought I was. Although still trying to move forward, I felt that my mistakes and just plain stupidity showed that I wasn't a good man. Or good enough. A friendship seemed my only worth and option.
However, Rebecca and I grew closer and closer with each letter and recently phone calls. We're not quite there yet, but trust and love continues to grow and strengthen. We are open, honest and accepting of each other. We're working on things and keeping the communications going.
A beautiful woman in my eyes, Rebecca doesn't see what I see in her, but the person I see, know, care about and have grown to love is mine to behold. Just as I am hers.
In time we'll visit and see if the chemistry is there and hopefully fall in love.
A glutton for punishment, and wanting to help, she has accepted the keys to my blogs and is now moderating. I would like all my friends to welcome her. I was leary of her moderating, with past experiences, but she is so damn persistant and Sue could really use the extra time.
Thank you again Sue for your help and friendship. Thank you Rebecca for...well, for being so wonderful and for surrendering! BTW...How weird is it to type in something written about yourself? LOL. Now get back to work!
Friday, November 21, 2008
Housing unit 6 is now accepting orangemen applications for "Health Aides"! The inmate job posting states that to qualify for a position you must:
- Be at least Medium Security (IR: 3 or -)
- Have no + UA's for 24 months
- No history of assaults on Staff/Inmates
- No violent crimes
- No escape history
- And medically able to work
The job pays the maximum pay allowed for an inmate working for ADOC. $0.50 an hour! FYI - An ADOC inmate contracted out to a Non-ADOC employer by law must earn at least minimum wages for the state, minus room/board, statutory fees/fines, etc. and a percentage goes into a "retention fund", which he/she generally has no access to until released.
This job, according to the job posting, entails:
- Assisting "staff" turning incapacitated inmate patients, as well as transferring, lifting, showering, tioleting, shaving, bathing, dressing, changing, feeding, liquidation, ambulation, linen changing, wheel chairing and providing Oral, Foot, Nail and Skin care. In addition to cleaning/disinfecting exam tables, toilets, sinks and other similar chores.
New hire and annual training will be provided by a Registered Nurse - Presumable an ADOC one.
Now I'm not an expert on health care, but this sounds like a huge disaster preparing to happen at the cost of medically vulnerable inmates' health and possibly lives. Having experienced the health care provided by ADOC's doctors and nurses, and seen the level of care these individuals have for us in orange, and lived around the orangemen who have been and will be applying, I expect this to go badly.
Maybe those of you with experience in this field can tell me if what's going on here, or about to within a month or so, is legal and/or ethical? I welcome and encourage all input and help with this matter if things don't sound right. Comment, call, email, and do what you can.
I know the states budget is in shambles, and all state agencies must pinch pennies, but if that's what this is, it's extremely a bad decision!!!
Today, with only a day or so left on the project, an orangeman was seriously injured on the job, and was transported to the hospital by ambulance. With a throw-together crew, with only a couple of experienced, educated workers on-hand, it's surprising this was the only serious injury.
After installing and feeding 2,500 ft of electrical wire through a conduit, a group of orangemen accnounced throughout the building, one at a time, "Wire going live!" , "Live wire!" , "Live wire!" , "Live wire!" and just after the final guy called out and the switch was flipped, there was a loud "Crack!", followed by a loud crash.
Flipping the switch back off, the orangeman ran to where the noise came from, finding another orangeman on the floor, motionless, ladder on its side, ceiling tiles ontop of him. "I can't feel my body" he quietly moaned.
Not working on the same wire, the guy didn't think that 277 volts could arc over to the adjacent bare wire he had been holding, which it did, blowing him twelve feet down out of the rafters.
The paramedics deemed it a "Level One Injury by Mechanism." Apparently, the fall from the rafters was worse than the 277 volts that surged through him. If he returns to the unit, he may unfortunately become the first resident of the new facility, now identified as "Housing Unit 6".
Barack Obama! The first African-American president of the U.S. of A., AND Democratic Majority in the U.S. Senate and Congress! AND Joe Biden as Vice President! U.S. people have spoken.
WTF?? Sheriff of Maricopa County: Arpaio. You've gotta be kidding me! AND Maricopa County Attorney: Andrew Thomas! WTF! What, did joe-the-tyrant stage another one of his illegal immigration operations in Maricopa County before/during the election, detaining every non-American "looking" person? Or maybe predawn raids on the polling locations "in search of outlaw gangs of mexican cleaning crews. Operation Clean Sweep. I love the elderly, but damn...go vote in the states you live in, NOT the one you own a home in and visit.
I the national and world arena we've taken a giant stride forward to fix a broken government, crippled economy, strained citizenship, bully image, and pigheaded foreign relations attitude. The current "Yes you will!" aphorism has now been democratically subjugated, succeeded with "Yes we can!"
As for locally...WTF! Ya gotta be kidding me!
The general consensus of the "Orange Party" is Obama/Biden is the change we needed too. Overwhelmingly, we, the disenfranchised, agree!
Friday, November 14, 2008
I've been considering my future alot lately. Things I find to be most important, such as good friends, family, a home, clean living, good health, a career, happiness, and stability. Many of these things will inevitably fall in place, as some things have already. I know this. Some things I'll have to fight for, work hard for, struggle to obtain and hold onto, and be willing to sacrifice the things I'd like and want for the things I love and need. I know this too.
This is completely new for me. Foreign. Sure, I've been living outside my comfort zone in here for years and it's tough. Very tough! But come the year 2012, it'll be completely different. I'll be outside these walls. That scares me more than anything I've experienced. Ever. I'm readying myself the best I can, but that fear remains.
The inner dialogue I often have going on gets pretty crazy at times. "Where will you live? Nobody's waiting for you when you get released. Whose going to be there when you need help or advice or anything? You know friends in the past left you hanging in the wind. You're on your own. What if you aren't good enough to make a career out of your writing and/or your passions? It's a tough field to get into. Will you get who and what you love and need? it's never turned out that way before..." You get the idea I'm sure. LOL
Some things I hold onto that keeps me focused...the emotions I feel when I look at certain photos and read letters; the sadness, disgust and frustration I see and feel when I look around me; the friends I have who've stood by me in good and bad times; and the sobering fact that this inner dialogue...I've never heard it before! I'm going to be okay. I know this. But I remain afraid.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Last night a Sargent and COII caused a food strike on the unit. Only a small portion of the yard showed up for Pizza night (only one orangeman from my building).
Just prior to opening the chowhall for dinner, my building was on the recreation yard, when the Sargent running the yard screamed across the yard for every inmate to return to their buildings and lock down. He was obviously angry, which I could see and hear in his voice. As we talked back to the building, he continued to yell and he began defending the quality of the dinner. Now, we were concerned about the meal! Sanitation, portions and health have been a serious concern here, but have been improving.
Once back inside our building, the COII working there tried to explain to us that nothing was wrong with the meal. Now convinced that something was wrong, nobody went to dinner.
Minutes after returning to the building, an orangeman was taken to the hole. Rumor has it, he was taken for instigating the food strike by refusing to serve dinner because something was wrong. When in truth, most orangemen I've spoken to didn't eat because of the Sargent and COII's actions. We only heard that the inmate was refusing to work.
There were rumors at breakfast that dinner may have something wrong with it, but in my view this wouldn't have been a problem if not for the bad attitudes of the Sargent and COII.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
Tony woke up this morning, crumbs all over his pillow and mattress, and an empty rack of peanut butter creme sandwich cookies on the desk next to his head. "I don't remember eating them," he explained to me.
I've known that he eats in his sleep, but he hasn't done it in months. Usually a spoon of peanut butter (evident by it stuck on his cheek in the morning), a single bite of a danish (the remains dried out in the morning) or a couple of Ritz crackers. Never 20 sandwich cookies though! LOL
He thinks it may be stressed induced, which is possible, because of the anxiety he feels every weekend wondering if his daughter & ex, and/or Chris, or anybody will visit-nobody's been able to make it in awhile and he worries-or a combination of this prison life and his nearing release, and the visit situation.
What do you think would cause a person to eat in their sleep? I wonder if this is common?
Saturday, November 01, 2008
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October 25, 2008
Today's charity fundraiser was a big success on all fronts! (ok, Shannon)
$1,325.50 was raised on the Manzanita unit for Making strides Against Breast Cancer-American Cancer Society.
286 (1.5 quart) cartons of vanilla ice cream and 381 (2 liter) soda bottles were purchased at a 100% mark up today on the unit. Now some may say it's about the product. This I will disagree with. Ice cream and soda are sold on the commissary weekly, and it's far cheaper on the commissary!
Personally, I think that all charities that help women and children need our support. I have a soft spot for them. Especially those charities that help abused, neglected, homeless, and/or endangered women and children.
Althoug men too can develop breast cancer, women are the majority. Being that I've noticed a majority of this blog's readership is of the fairer sex (sorry, Don), I ask each and everyone to feel your boobies. Right now! If you find anything which is remotely out of the ordinary, please...see a doctor. ASAP! No giggles during the exam! LOL
FYI* November's fundraiser will benefit Casa de los Ninos, a local organization that helps provide safe and stable homes to children in need. A very important service in my eyes.